Friday, March 27, 2009
Obsessing About Amanda Knox Case: This Blogger Going Mad by Grains
I am an obsessive person. When something grabs my interest, I reflect on it extensively, often using I Ching or Tarot cards as a contemplative aid. An I Ching Analysis and Tarot reading on Amanda Knox reveals her as "among the overthrowers" yet somehow slated to be vindicated.
Is it possible that she was in fact not the ringleader, nor the knife wielder, but a bystander in a game which had gotten out of control? This is the irritating thing about consulting oracles: One does not know if this is truth being revealed from the collective unconscious, or simply a chance reading, or an aspect overlooked. If one takes, as I do, the philosophical stance, then oracle consulting is just the mirror to one's own subconscious. The acausality of which Jung speaks would account for the way in which the reading is somehow connected to the question, but outside of empirical and causal facts.
One possible scenario is that Rudy Guede was the ringleader, or became it. Or Sollecito. But all of this muddies the waters. It does not resonate with spirit and intuition.
The I Ching replied to the question, What is Amanda's true role in the murder? with Hexagram 23, Splitting Apart , with "movement" in lines 3 and 6. Line 3 reads: The line shows its subject among the over throwers, but there is no mistake. He splits with them. Line 6 reads, There is a large fruit yet uneaten. The superior one finds support again, and is carried by the people; but the inferior is overthrown. Fresh impulses to a deteriorated situation.
Some truth has not been uncovered. Might it be that Amanda really left the room, and covered her ears at the sound of Meredith's scream, as she had asserted? Could Rudy be the true rapist and killer, with Amanda and Raffaele playing only the part of instigators? And this will all be made clear in time? The Tarot reading (using Hanidl deck) for Amanda was: The Past : Empress, Reversed - Difficulty with one's mother and in expressing one's emotion. The Present: Daughter of Swords , Reversed - loss of confidence and strength; depression and futility. The Future: Father of Swords, Upright - a strong, intellectual judge predisposed to fairness.
Or could Raffaele be indicated in the readings? Sometimes one does a reading with a question in mind, only to receive an answer to a different question, lurking in the recesses of the subconscious mind.......
Another possibility: The "bad" Amanda may have come out due to drug use. Now that she is imprisoned and no longer polluting her brain chemistry a "good" Amanda may emerge. This is the strong and fair judge, when viewed this way. She may be "splitting" with her old self, who DID in fact act as knife wielder and ring master.
I find myself desparate to know who Amanda really is. Why is this so important to me? Do I see my own youth in her; what might have occurred to me also? Why is it that I do not fear, in retrospect, having fallen into Meredith's fate, but into Amanda's? Does she symbolize some part of my adolescence which from which I escaped, only by sheer luck, unscathed?
I ask once again, for the I Ching to clarify regarding Amanda: Jealousy and anger are disruptive. Action taken is dangerous. Testing times. Not remaining committed leads to shame. SIGH. Now I am getting the impression she "backed out" after having begun the whole thing. Better let it go, I have a migraine headache now............Let the courts figure this one out, I am "Amanda-ed" out.....